The camera is looking at you looking at [[me]]. You can’t see what i’m seeing, only where i’m [[looking]].The camera is looking at me looking at [[someone]].And surely, someone is looking at [[you->someone2]].Is it [[me->me2]]?You look at [[me->me3]] looking at someone.You look at my eyes, my eyes look below your eyes at the screen. This is [[eye contact]].Or would be, if I was looking at [[you]]. Am I?
[[...->...3]]The room is filled with a low interminable machine hum. An electric choir, the computers fans are angelic wings spinning like the many eyed ring of the Ophanim, sustaining our connection. God is a machine that hums.
[[...->...4]]You know everything about me, you wrote it down, do I know everything about you? I’m watching ([[...->...5]]) as well, is it you? How do I feel about you? Do I watch the way you watch me? Are you watching someone else watching [[me->me4]]?You know everything about me, you wrote it down, do I know everything about you? I’m watching (someone) as well, is it you? How do I feel about you? Do I watch the way you watch me? Are you watching someone else watching [[me->me4]]?I scratch my [[nose]].I scratch my nose. You take a [[note]].I scratch my nose. You take a note. I take a [[note->note2]].This is the fifth time I scratched my nose, so it’s noteworthy. You know someone takes notes about you. You wonder if it’s me. You wonder if you can [[let me know]].You could call out. But would I respond? What if I just took a note, or worse, did [[nothing]]?You saw a girl masturbate once. She wasn’t even hiding [[it]].Then who would be looking?
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>Subject reported
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[[...->...7]]You wanted to [[masturbate]] too,You wanted to masturbate too, as secretly as [[possible]],You wanted to masturbate too, as secretly as possible, face [[still]],You wanted to masturbate too, as secretly as possible, face still, eyes [[forward]],You wanted to masturbate too, as secretly as possible, face still, eyes forward, [[rubbing]] small circles into yourself.You wanted to masturbate too, as secretly as possible, face still, eyes forward, rubbing [[small]] circles into yourself.You wanted to masturbate too, as secretly as possible, face still, eyes forward, rubbing small [[circles]] into yourself.You wanted to masturbate too, as secretly as possible, face still, eyes forward, rubbing small circles into [[yourself]].You wanted to masturbate too, as secretly as possible, face still, eyes forward, rubbing small circles into yourself. Breathing harder, [[sharper]],You wanted to masturbate too, as secretly as possible, face still, eyes forward, rubbing small circles into yourself. Breathing harder, sharper, swallowing the feeling as fast as it [[came]].Was I watching?
[[...->...9]]Was I watching?
Did I notice?
[[...->...10]]Was I watching?
Did I notice?
Was I taking notes?
[[...->...11]]Was I watching?
Did I notice?
Was I taking notes?
Did I do it too?
[[...->...12]]Was I watching?
Did I notice?
Was I taking notes?
Did I do it too?
Do you love me?
[[...->...13]]Was I watching?
Did I notice?
Was I taking notes?
Did I do it too?
Do you love me?
Do I love you?
[[...->...14]]The lightning that carries our connection across the wire is a [[prayer]]. You [[pray]].I take a note
[[...->...15]]Your mouth is dry. You are looking at the screen looking at me looking at the screen. I reach out and click, Your heart leaps, the screen i’m looking at changes, but you can’t see how, did I stop looking at you? or start? Can I see you now? Should you call out? If you do someone ([[...->...16]]) might take a note? Is it worth it? What if I didn’t even take a [[note->note3]]?Your mouth is dry. You are looking at the screen looking at me looking at the screen. I reach out and click, Your heart leaps, the screen i’m looking at changes, but you can’t see how, did I stop looking at you? or start? Can I see you now? Should you call out? If you do someone (me?) might take a note? Is it worth it? What if I didn’t even take a [[note->note3]]?You scratch your [[nose->nose2]].You scratch your nose. I take a [[note->note4]].You scratch your nose. I take a note. you take a [[note->note5]]. Artillery shot thunder rattles the room, lights flicker, it shutters you, it shutters me. I become tense, you brace yourself. This is why you chose me, i’m close. You don’t make a note, I don’t make a note. We don’t make notes about such things, but you remember the time, the delay, so little. You think I must be near, I could be just behind this [[wall]].You saw a collapsed room once, before you found me, no one had reported it, streaks of red on the back wall, specs of dust on the lense, cracks, shafts of light from the outside [[breaking in]]. You imagine breaking out, You keep your face very still, you imagine an artillery shot bursting through the wall, you imagine [[dying->note6]], turning to red on the walls.[[>->>5]]You scratch your nose I take a note, you take a note.
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>Subject dying
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[[...->...17]]Do you think [[I]] love you?The [[me->me5]] on the screen.The [[me->me6]] watching you? You want to call out.
[[...->...18]]You want to call out. I take a note.
[[...->...19]]I want to call out.
[[...->...20]]You take a note.You are in the Camgirl Panopticon.
Lets [[Begin]].You wanted to masturbate too, as secretly as possible, face still, eyes forward, rubbing small circles into yourself. Breathing [[harder]],Then who would be [[looking->looking2]]?Then who would be looking?
[[if]]You wanted to masturbate too, as secretly as possible, face still, eyes forward, rubbing small circles into yourself. Breathing harder, sharper, swallowing the feeling as fast as it came.
[[...->...8]]